Venting a sad emotion, slight insomnia

Yeah, Nancy, I thought you were totally fluent!

See? Tara doubts her paintings, you doubt your English. We all have self-perceived "imperfections". I know I have plenty of my own.

We're all awesome here. There is just no way around it.

Kirsten.... I LOVE IT!

This is why I love this forum. You're soooo helpful and warm and you're always there with the right words (wich my limited English doesn't allow me to say). Thanks to be my voice because all of you have said what I wanted to say: we all have down days and need to be reminded how wonderful we are.
Tara, We need your warmth and kindness at this forum.

And, like someone above said, WHERE'S THE HUG BUTTON?

Tara, Don't worry about comparisons, etc. That'll just hold you back. Be the best you can be, have fun & enjoy yourself. I'm always working hard to make sure I don't lose the joy in my work & my job. If I feel like I'm losing that joy, then I re-evaluate what my goals are & what's steeling my love of face painting.
I always try to remember that there will always be someone better than me & that's ok. I'm very happy w/ what I do!
Have fun & relax & just paint!

Thank to all of your for your words, I didnt expect to cause a landslide! But thank you for it. I have been stewing over two days and reading, not saying anything but thinking. I rethought alot of things and a lightbulb went off today.
Im not a business person. I was much, much much happier telling people I can come and volunteer and not worrying about prices or paperwork, or advertising and all that. I think Im going to try to stick with that even though being the 'hobby mom' is frowned upon- it is whats going to work for me. I enjoy having the better paints and set ups though, and will probably make enough in donations and tips to off set the cost...maybe. LOL either way I think that is how I will handle it and what was causing me to stress and start really doubting.
I would rather be painting then people and places turning me down because they cant afford me. I wasnt even charging what the going rate is! A FP an hour away (my driving limit) charges $75 and come here to festivals all the time. Anywho, I am dropping back down to cover my costs and just volunteer my time. If I make over, yaya!! Im (going to try my hardest anyways) not to stress though, life IS to short. If Im not out for money then I wont worry about making money, or get so nervous that I MUST do better or whatnot. Its a different mindset for me. I believe I will paint much better.

I had to turn down someone tonight. A big oppurtinity in fact. I went to a Suessical theater show for Eries SUmmer Theater program, they had 100 kids in cast. I was talking to a lady sitting behind me and my daughter and she was revealed later to be the director! She asked me to come to their picnic tomorrow and paint, then if I would be interested in painting the faces for the following years show. They havent had a painter in along time.
I said I would most certainly, but I couldnt paint tomorrow I had plans. Personal plans. I felt horrible and was stressing for over an hour on which to do- dump my friend or give up (what I think) is a great oppurtunity
I decided NOT to dump my friend last minute because we been planning two weeks, last chance we can go, bought our tickets, im painting us tomorrow
Im just hoping the director will understand and still call next time she thinks of me.
its a tough descion but I had to apply my new thought process to it. I cant dump one thing because another great one comes along or Ill be ticking everyone off in the end. I need to look out for myself some to and hope karma treats me well.

whoa, lots of type! typos and bad grammar abound. I am a horrible typer, but I type just like I talk. If you knew me you would understand. Sorry for babbling but I wanted to thank you again for your words, I am saving these for rainy days to come. I want a hugs button to. thanks.