Just needing some love.... :(

such a sad sad story. so sorry to hear of your loss. as a twin myself i feel that bond with my sister and i know that if death were to separate us we would find each other again in the afterlife. the bond is simply that strong. just know that your little angel is waiting in heaven for you and that she would want you to be happy as you want her to be happy. big hugs to you and your family

There is no way to heal that pain.
You learn to live with the hole in your soul.
My heart cries for you.
I think it is important to grieve every year for the ones close to you that you may have lost.
And appreciate the ones you still hold close.

oh my gosh, that made me tear up! So sorry for your loss, I'm sure you're little angel is always with you.

I am so, so sorry.

I watched my sister hold her newborn son while he drew his few breaths, then die. I had my own precious three month old son at the time. It's always especially hard when there is another child to measure the missing one's days and years by. Every year on his birth/death day I give her a new charm for her bracelet that signifies something the boys would be doing together that year. She has a soccer ball, a piano, a silver french fry package, and a few others.
I know how hard it is, so thank you for sharing with us. Most people just don't get it. Hugs to you and your family.

Thank you all for being so incredibly supportive!!!! This has been a really had month for me, and all the love from you all makes it liveable!!

I also think that losing my dad last year, and that I was the one that was trying to resusitate him, like I did the first time my daughter stopped breathing, and that we will be coming up on the year anniversary of that also that it has me with a gigantic hole in my heart. Even though I am truly happy for them not suffering anymore I am just lost without them. I have gotten to the point that I can look at my the twin, Brittany, and not see my twin that passed, Phyllicha. But this month I just keep seeing her. And I think that my daughter has a hole in her heart too.... and I am truly afraid what she will try to fill that hole with, you know... She is a good kid, but she is lost right now, and I am stuck wondering if that is why. She is getting to be really rebellious, and defiant, and I don't know how to handle it. I think that seeing her like this, and missing her twin so much is just pushing my stress level and stuff really far.

But I will thank you all again for letting me post all of this.